A Beautiful Mess

On the way to work this morning I heard the new Amy Grant Song and I just want to share some lyrics:

"The tears of shame for what's been done
The silence when the words won't come
Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah"

I just love this song.  When I am driving to work and running late or I have had just a rotten day and I am a mess and I have done everything wrong I could possibly do in a day...I just stop and think, "Thank heavens God knows I am a wreck and still loves me!"

I have been doing a lot of reflecting as I prepare to journey down the road as a teacher...of teenagers no less...I want to be a good example for them because for some I may be the best example they ever have.  I might have said that in an earlier blog but it really does stick with me.  I am trying to be more kind and thoughtful...less gossipy.  I never used to be a big gossiper but I find that lately the mouth flapping has been a little over board.  I shouldn't be so mean....sometimes I wonder if I am being mean because I am upset with me and I want others to focus elsewhere....who knows.  I just know I am thankful that I can ask forgiveness for being a jerk everyday and everyday I am forgiven.

Just feeling a little reflective this morning friends of mine.  Reflection is good.  It cleans out your insides.  This is different than obsessing or whining...those things just make you feel worse.  Don't obsess friends or make excuses, accept your reality and trek onward.  You will feel much better!

In other less reflective news, I LOVE Jen Lancaster.  That's right Jen you make my workouts and other various activities hysterical!  I was on the elliptical yesterday with "Pretty in Plaid" (for the second time) and I just laughed and laughed...out loud....people at the gym now hate me...  Oh that awful food you had to eat...I had to eat it too...enough said!  Please keep writing books filled with such hilarity.  I have "My Fair Lazy" ready for my vacation next week...let me tell you how hard it has been to save it...I have had it since the day after it came out!!!!!!!!

Ladies, if you haven't read my friend Jen's (in my head we are great friends...she understands me!) books please stop what you are doing and go get "Bitter is the New BLack"  I guarantee laughter.  110%.

In other book news:  I am just about down with our book club book, "Sex Murder and a Double Latte" by the fabulous Kyra Davis.   I like it.  Funny, a little romance, a good mystery and lots of girl stuff...yes please!

 Alright that's all she wrote!

~B